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A rubber Story

This story occurred really in the morning while I was messaging my friend around seven in the mourning while we where at school, but we go different schools. I was erasing my work that I had written and then my eraser broke, and that is how the story began. Read the pictures for the story.

Sometime even the strongest relationship ends. This is because no one show the bad parts of their relationship, just like the glue used to hold these two ends of the eraser together. I never so it was going to break till it did. I never saw that the glue was not strong enough but it sure did look strong enough to hold the eraser together. Just like a relationship do not watch someone else relationship and think it prefect and say you want a relationship like theirs, because you never know what is happening behind close doors. A little part of you will always love and care for the person but if it ended it ended for a reason. I told my friend the reason the eraser broke up is because the blue one wa…

conversation about boys!!

Little do you know that I have written about every boy one this blog! I have turned them into a story well some! The stories are true but with a happier ending I guess. I was talking to my thirteen year old cousin about boys!!! Like I did not intent to but the conservation came up. So I told her a few my stories. Well the story that still is continuing till this day!!!

Let me give you a brief of the story.... They was this boy and when I met him... girlllll I crushed hard!! Like real hard but I did not say or acted on it... But eventually we became close and like real close and we talked for hours!!!! But my "kinda sorta" friend liked him also! so I never pursue anything plus I honestly did want to! long story short many many years have pasted and we are friends still.... And as annoying as he is.. *roll eyes* I truly care for him because he is my friend. So they got together and I am happy for them. I guess I am happy for them because when I look at him I do not see the bo…

Life and it's curve balls!!

So after a day like yesterday! I got sick! First time I ever got painful cramps!! Normally I never take anything for it!!! But last night I felt soooo much pain!! Its was like I know my heart misses him and then cramps. Still in pain but it is not as bad as last night leading into this morning!!

I really do not know what God has in store, but I will follow the way he plans it. Life is so confusing and everything and anything feels like it just going wrong! It feels like today is a day that all I want to cry and drop everything and lay in bed.

Hope this stream of whatever this misery is just needs to end soon!! Get be back to being focus on the important things in life!!! I really need this rocky road to show me why all this happened or is happening!!!

Anyone else is having a horrible day!! Well lets look for some light in this darkness!

Our last hug!

Today was going perfectly fine!! It has been a few days without him in school. But due to the main situation I never wanted to contact him. So I told himself that he was not feeling well or something! I knew something was wrong! I do not why but I could just feel it!! Some type of connection I have with him that makes me know that something was not right!!

I told myself I was not going to contact him tell Wednesday!! But as the day went along. The place became different!! The place without him felt empty!! It is like I needed to see him or hear him to feel safe. Which is true because the only reason I am on that side is because I know he was there and wants he was, I knew nothing bad could ever happened to me! And If it did, God forbid, I know he was foots steps away!

Deep down in my heart I knew he needed me and something was wrong! I do not why or how I knew this but I could of felt it!! I just did not think it was my place to ask him that! But I really hoped he was perfectly fine!…

Valentine's Day

Where do I been!!! This day had so much unexpected events. Well firstly I wore a white short dress with red flowers and black flats. I went to school as normal and had class as normal. So my friends came over to where I was sitting doing my work. We are somewhat close but I did not see why they needed to stay as long as they did knowing our history! Just saying. So they are together. So you will think they would go be alone and exchange gifts or whatever the case maybe. Nopes. Lol But I was not to bored because I was finishing u some work.
So eventually the boy left, which of the two I am actually closest to. I did not know where he went. But she did. Because she sent him to buy her a valentine's gift. LOL she did not expect what he would actually do.. So while he was gone. She asked me what to get him!!! Well after all they got together a few weeks now, but she always say she knows him longer so she basically know him better.... but I am not going to say nothing. Yet you ask me …

I miss this!

I miss the days that I just came on here and wrote everything and anything!! I am so busy but I want to always put something out there for you all. To be honest after my grandmother died I just took a break from everything!!! I mean everything. God did send a really amazing friend my direction. You know when you barely know someone but you know they exist. The first conversation we had lasted nine hours!!!!!!!!!! Like what, that's so not me.
I have spoken to them ever since that day!!! So much that the person is the first person I talk to in the morning and the last person I talk to before I go to sleep!! I feels like we been friends for a life time and we recently just go back in touch.. I must say that person has become so important so fast. 
I think it is because I can be 100% real with them. No need to whole back or think about they reaction. Like we talked about everything I mean like marriage, jobs, retirement! Yes girl Retirement!!!!! LOL 
I am really thankful for a friend…

Pre- Valentine's day post!!💕

Yes! If you know me by now you would definitely know I love , love!!! Yes roses are red and candies are sweet like the comments you leave down below!!!! This valentine's would be my first valentine's by myself!!! Yes I am my own valentine's! But if you want I will be yours do not worry. 
I wanted to write this now and before the day comes so that I can write what happened on that lovely day!! So lets go back to the past valentine's!! So for the last two valentine's I was in a relationship. We exchanges gifts but we never went out!!! So technically I never had a real valentine's "date". Then the one before those I was single but one my closest friends was it that year!! LOL we still close but that friend is taken. 
So this valentine's is about me!! Loving life and loving that I can eat all the chocolate and not share with someone! LOL To be fully honest I have to study that night because I have a test the next day.
So my beautiful readers from all…

Serious conversation!

Have you ever known someone so well that you feel like you can read their mind! Or you are so close that you see their true emotions when they are hiding it behind a smile to pretend to everyone else!! Yes! we shared so much together! But why do I see his pain!! Why is it me that can see through is fake smile or even is fake laugh... 
 Sometimes all you can do is tell them that you know they are pretending!! But what do you do when they stay and try to stop pretending! Do wait and be there for them till it crashes and all the truth is reveal, Or do you just walk away and hope that they stop pretending and the smile their show to the world is genuine!! 
How do you know if to walk away? When there is so much history and friendship between you both!  Girl what do you do! When you know your heart will always care for them but they made they decision! 
What would you do???